To me everything is intertwined.

When one thing sucks, it all will start to suck.

I do not recommend taking Ambien. I have now taken it twice in my life, neither time waking up refreshed at all. The first was when my father died and then on Sunday night. Sleep is still far from me.

I have been told that I probably need to seek some counsel to deal with an issue from my childhood - one that I don't think bothers me. Since that has now been told to me by two people who profess they love me, then maybe I should listen and obey. Sometimes I am tired of obeying.